isit a big deal if i were to know geokchoo working at Orchard OG?
or you scared i will get this case and talk to you back.
seriously, i'm not childish.
cux the point now is i'm working on sunday,
and cheryl's needed time is also sunday.
since both clash, of course geokchoo can work la.
use brain also know.
why scared?


i dont understand why she is so afraid i would know.
even i know alr, so WHAT?!
if i dont confront you, what's the matter.
then no point worried here and there.
i dont care la seriously.
things have been over for quite sometimes.
why do i want to quarrel over this factor.


even if you tell me, i also wont be angry.
now the point is because you didnt tell me, then of course i'm angry.
but nothing matters now.
because if possible, i also wont want to work with you anymore.
cux you dont even deserve my respect.

i need this space to breath in.
i think without this space, i will die sia.


i saw chun yan today.
surprisingly, he can make it for meifong's chalet.
well i really didnt expect that he will come.
but too bad, i'm wrong.
the person he contact is not me, but bernard's sister.
i felt very depressed.
reason being the person is not me and he didnt look at me once.
how can he just forget me like that.
am i really that unimportant?
it really hurts me.
no matter what, he is still my first love.
first love is hard to forget.
when the moment i forget, he appear again.
SIGH.


he didnt look at me even once leh!
can you imagine?
is he guilty or he just dont wan to see my face?
am i really that bad?
arghhh*
i know to him, i meant nothing to him.
seems like i just cant find a reason to take me out from the drain.
i just dash into it andddd.
HAIS.


i really tiredd please.
please give me true love.
i need somebody to love me.
if not, i dunno when i will become les.
seriously.
=(((

yes! i'm in the EXCELLENCE ACADEMIC AWARD!
finally after so long, received something from the school.
even though is not CASH but paper.
well, happy is happy, but if there is cash more happy.
paper, seriously i do not know what i can do.
even apply uni also might not get in.


pay got in.
and it soon going to empty.
TP is around the corner and i felt super scared.
seriously, i do not have any confident to pass leh.
sians lor!
but i also don want to waste another time of money!
HAIIS!


arghhh!
now is work or not to work.
i also confused.
HAHA! work more money.
no work, slack at home also buay pai!
hahaha.

GRRR!
quite pissed with myself.
why do i want to care whether is given or whatever.
perhaps is just my 自尊心在作怪!
but i dont understand, why cant she just tell me the true?!


is okay if the landyard is brought by eileen.
is okay if you buy it yourself.
why dont you tell me on the spot rather than..
i dunno.
but i just dont like the feeling of being cheated.
seriously, i don believe is your aunt whatever bullshit.
kaos! i hate ppl lying to me.
fuck!
i'm so angry. if the fact is there, then why dont just admit.


i hate the feeling like being ignored and also cheated.
i can be lonely, but if you are my friends, there shouldnt be any secrets.
ARGHHH! I DONT LIKE! I DONT LIKE!
haiis.


why people want to play with my feelings.
once i treated the person just like sister.
i get in return is SHIT!
just like sophia.
i treat her like sister, but now. i'm nothing to her.
even sms also dont want to reply.
what the fuck to this world now.


say brand is nothing.
please lor!
always turn back to shoot back yourself.
whatever it is, i hate ppl lying to me!


I HATE LIARS!

sometimes work can be fun and nice.
if everything is smooth and we are not scolded.
actually, i really enjoyed working with BHG BUGIS BONIA.
if there's no auntie snatching sales,
no ivy scolding and no catherine black face.
work will be much more fun.
what's more is $$! =)


i tried very hard to keep myself occupied.
so that i'm able to forget all the unhappiness.
i dunno why i'm a failure towards relationship.
but definitely, i'm trying to improve and be better partner.
if there is somebody with is willing to be my partner first!


my father ahh father!
i dont understand why he likes to keep things and take things.
just like the computer table.
i dunno why he wants to bring back and keep it in my room.
bloody hell, i need to clean one lehhh!
most importantly, I DONT NEED IT AT ALL!
what's the big fuck if it's very new.
i dont need any computer table.
ONE is enoughhhhhhh!
i hope he really get his bloody mind awake!


this is why, i need a PRIVATE space.
cux this is something i want to BOMB it out.
i cant possibly talk in my blog that is opened.
people will start to pin point at me.
let's face the fact, when i've too many concerned.


just like results.
i'm supper happy getting my completed 12 A's in modules.
WHY?! just because i can get my HONOR WITH DISTINCTION!
i'm of course proud of myself.
because after so long, i do better than anyone of my friends.
not that i want to show off.
but is the fact that, i'm slower than you by one year.
but my achievement is better than you TODAY!
and i must admit, i can get better opportunities with such diploma!
what's more, i can keep my relatives SHUT their mouth!


Singapore is too political.
i dunno when to be good, when to be bad.
it's hard for me to put a mask all day.
like means like,
dont like means dont like.
but the fact is that.
we are too hypocritical.

decided to open a blog which is not going to be private.
private as in, no one will know this blog link.
unless is being search and got it.
for now, it is going to be for me JASMINE CHEW alone.


there are too many things i have to tell somebody.
perhaps there isnt the right person yet to say.
because i dont want others to worry for me.
so sometimes, things are left unspoken is better.


yes. i admit, i'm missing Chun Yan.
he bunk into my life and left.
no footprints that i can follow.
but just a short memory of him and i.
when i was in secondary 1, i have fall in love with him.
we had some past but i doubt he remember.
it's just puppy love.
we have done nothing.
that day which is on 20-09-2009.
we went to watch movie.


i know this time, he is lonely.
just needed someebody to stay by his side.
and so am i.
so eventually we like couples.
however, it ended shortly.
i didnt want this loneliness to be a burden to him.
nor i want to face the fact that i'm just a toy.
when he need that somebody, i'm there.
i don't want to be like this.
however, it seems that I AM.


kinda sad for myself.
because all true love cant be ever lasting.
or my love story is just nothing.
perhaps not going to even have one.
am i that ugly? or am i that fat.
why there are no right one for me.
i'm very lonely.
i need somebody.
sigh.