decided to open a blog which is not going to be private.
private as in, no one will know this blog link.
unless is being search and got it.
for now, it is going to be for me JASMINE CHEW alone.


there are too many things i have to tell somebody.
perhaps there isnt the right person yet to say.
because i dont want others to worry for me.
so sometimes, things are left unspoken is better.


yes. i admit, i'm missing Chun Yan.
he bunk into my life and left.
no footprints that i can follow.
but just a short memory of him and i.
when i was in secondary 1, i have fall in love with him.
we had some past but i doubt he remember.
it's just puppy love.
we have done nothing.
that day which is on 20-09-2009.
we went to watch movie.


i know this time, he is lonely.
just needed someebody to stay by his side.
and so am i.
so eventually we like couples.
however, it ended shortly.
i didnt want this loneliness to be a burden to him.
nor i want to face the fact that i'm just a toy.
when he need that somebody, i'm there.
i don't want to be like this.
however, it seems that I AM.


kinda sad for myself.
because all true love cant be ever lasting.
or my love story is just nothing.
perhaps not going to even have one.
am i that ugly? or am i that fat.
why there are no right one for me.
i'm very lonely.
i need somebody.
sigh.